Letting Go - Letting Rob

 

What does it mean to let go?  This is the question on my mind right now.  How do I let go of a life I have lived with this man for over 30 years?  It seems impossible and yet, here I am, faced with this next challenge in my life.

I know I am not the only one going through big changes right now; we are amid a major spiritual evolution, and nothing is going to be the same once it is complete.  So why do I think that I can move through these massive changes without having to let go of what no longer serves me or bears fruit for me?  It doesn’t make sense at all to think that I am going to be unaffected by the biggest change that I have had to do to date, the loss of my soul mate, my best friend, and my husband.  He was all those things and more; so how do I cope?

On the one hand, I’m doing ok, moving from day to day and dealing with the details of completing on Rob’s life here on earth.  Those tasks alone are keeping me very busy.  And yet, I’m also in full communication with Rob in the early hours of the morning.  I seem to be able to get about 4 hours sleep and then I hear from him, and he talks to me about what he is doing and, encouraging me to ‘be resilient’ in my emotions and to keep my frequency up in order to move through these changes with ease and grace.

Once again, as usual, he is right.  It is what I need to do and I’m so grateful for his guidance from the other side.  He has also reassured me that he is there to assist me and that I just need to ask, and he will come to my aid.  This I have experienced numerous times; the people I have had to contact to inform of his passing, have been overwhelmingly kind and helpful Where I thought I might be hampered by bureaucratic nonsense, I have found people more than willing to make the process simple and graceful.

The words ‘surrender, let go, ask for help and all is well’ have been a recurring theme in my life right now.  While it isn’t easy, it has been made less stressful because of his help.  For example, through the past 4 weeks there has been a constant stream of people and support in my life.  Having a friend stay with me right now has been the biggest support in helping me let go of papers, clothes, and general stuff that I no longer need.  Having someone here to box things up, throw things out and generally be a voice for ‘let it go’ has been massive. 

I’m doing all this clearing as I also prepare to have my house used as an Air BnB site for a few families.  This while I’m in the UK and Greece, having a break from life on the Island.  Preparing the house for visitors/guests was always Rob’s job.  I’m so amazingly grateful in retrospect for all the work he did to prepare the house.  I really had no idea what a huge job it was and just tended to complain on coming home to not being able to find anything that I needed.   Wow – was I ever mistaken. 

There are many moments like that for me now when I realize all that Rob did to keep me safe and secure.  He did that job so well and I’m incredibly grateful that he continues to do it today. 

That is my life to date; letting go and letting Rob continue to be the Rock he has always been in my life.  Thank you, sweetheart, – I love you and I always will.

 18 July 2021

Rob’s Journal – Guided by an Angel

On 27^th of June 2021 my beloved husband Robert Riches slipped away – suddenly, unexpectedly and with no fanfare whatsoever.  In my grief and devastation, I thought he really was gone.  I cried, I grieved and for the most part, remained in shock for the next several days.  How could this happen?  How could the man who had been my life for over 30 years (married for 25 years) suddenly leave my life?  I could not process it; it was all too much for my brain. 

Over the next few weeks, I was surrounded by family and friends who provided the most incredible assistance, love, and support.  I felt that I was in a bubble of love and some how protected from the deeper levels of loss and grief.  Yes, I was shocked, yes, I was incredibly sad and grieving and yes, it was all surreal and yet, I felt and still do feel very loved and protected. 

To backtrack a bit; the event that led up to my husband’s passing was a stroke that he had in February 2020.   I was in the UK working as a Trainer/Coach when I received the call that changed my life.  My husband would never be the same again.  Over the next 16 months, amidst the panic and madness that was Covid, I took care of Rob and did everything in my power to help him to heal and to get better.  If I heard about something that might help, be it a therapy, a supplement, a therapist, or a process, I said yes, and we embarked on that strategy.

By late May and early June of 2021, it became abundantly clear that Rob was not getting better.  I was a bit angry with him that he was not getting better.  After any session be it Massage or Physio he would often say, well, that was nice, but it does not last.  It was true, it did not last but given his strong mental belief that it would not last or make a big difference, I figured that having a shift in his mental thought process could be the answer.

I am here to admit, with hand on heart, that I did all I could do and nothing I did was going to stop my husband from leaving.  As the expression goes, when your time is up, your time is up.  In the days since he passed – just 14 as of today – I have become more aware of the total and utter lack of control I have, or anyone has over another person’s life.  It was a tremendously humbling awareness; I could not keep my husband alive. 

On July 1^st, a mere 4 days after he passed, Rob came to me in an immensely powerful and conscious way.  The first thing I heard him say was, ‘You didn’t think you’d get rid of me that easily, did you.’  I was pretty stunned, to say the least, and said, ‘Well, no, I didn’t really.  I figured you would connect with me but wow – I can feel you; I can hear you; this is amazing!’  He then continued to run some extraordinarily strong energy through my system.  I did not realize it at the time, but he told me later that he had shifted my consciousness to 5D consciousness so that it would be easier for us to communicate. 

My initial feeling was – whoa – this is, too much.  I don’t  think I can handle all of this, please back off a bit here.  You may be white light, but I am still in a physical body.  He did and he has, I have not had such a strong visit from his since.  He does pop in and communicate regularly, often in the middle of the night, but the energy is less intense. 

Apparently, all the love, cocooning and protection I am feeling is largely coming from him.  I know that I have friends who are immensely powerful energy healers and I know that they are also sending me lots of love and healing energy.  Yet, when I start to feel a lull, like the dial has been turned down, when I ask Rob for some energy and support, it is there, immediately. 

Over the past two weeks I have had several conversations with Rob and increasingly, my awareness and consciousness are expanding at exponential levels.  He has communicated with me the role he is playing right now in activating the grid system over the earth; along with the crystals, the monoliths and the ley lines that make up the quite complex electrical system that is our earth.  As an Electrical Engineer and a student of Metaphysics, Psychology and Transcendental Meditation, Rob was the perfect candidate for this job.  Thus, the need for him to depart at the time he did; he was needed on the other side to help lift the consciousness and ignite the circuitry of the Earth.  A big job, but someone had to do it.

Our little world is going through a massive spiritual evolution, and it is going to take all the love and light that we hold in our hearts to bring this about.  Rob has advised me on several points about what is happening.   The dark forces, if that is a term that suits the situation, are starting to lose their grip on the controls of our planet.  They have been in charge for an exceptionally long time, and it was determined that at this point in our history, we would take back our power and shine the light on what has been going on for thousands of years.  The enslavement of humanity under a system of unparalleled control, has come to an end.  We are in the final stages of this corrupt world system and are on the brink of a period of enlightenment and transformation that we have never experienced.  So, that is the good news; the bad news for me, is that it meant that Rob needed to leave to be a part of this massive awakening at the level of consciousness and physical In-light- Moment.

Where does that leave me today?  Resting, readying, making my way to the UK and Greece.  The time has come for me to also find my angel wings and take flight.  I asked Rob about that, did I get my wings and he said, sort of, but you do have one bent wing.  That totally made sense to me.